Agreed.
as the RHCP once said 'life is beautiful all around the world'
i guess its up to us to see it.
sometimes i really agree. and i love life. other times not so much.
sometimes i can say 'wow i really like myself for who i am'. other times...not so much.
I have AA. Approach Anxiety. i was at the mall today to see a movie. we were there for like 2 hours and although i had so many chances to approach groups of girls, i fucking couldnt. leading up to the moment where you see a girl or a group of them, everthing is fine. im confident, standing up straight etc. but once the moment of truth comes its like 'wow fuck this'
im just gonna wake up one morning...and act alpha all fucking day until maybe it becomes true, and slowly ive actually become alpha. then maybe itll be easier to approach.
anyways..im not quitting thats for sure. im gonna start talking to everyone i see. tomorrow im working. its an 8 hour shift and i just realized now that by delivering pizzas, im constantly communicating with people. but its so boring to make anything fun come out of it...maybe i need to say stupid things and get the fuck over it, and instead of telling myself i dont care what they think, maybe i should just NOT CARE what they think.
its 2 am and im blabbering again. except this time im listening to:
every day im hustlin, every day im hustlin, every day im hustlin,
every day im hustlin, every day im hustlin, every day im hustlin, every day im hustlin, every day im hustlin, every day im hustlin, every day im hustlin,
lol
this song actually pumps me up